Everyone knows there’s a dark side to the music industry, hell, there’s a dark side to anything – but no one ever really knew how bad it was until Kesha stepped forward and filed a complaint against her producer, Dr. Luke, in 2014 (see below for a short summary of what has been going on). Now, after three horrific years of fighting for herself and literally the basic human right to not be abused in any way possible, she has finally broken free and found her own voice. “Praying” is one of the newly released singles, and it blew me away – because, ultimately, in the song, she sings about a level of forgiveness/letting go I can hardly even fathom.
The YouTube video starts with a monologue: “Am I dead? Or is this one of those dreams? Those horrible dreams, that seem like they’ll last forever. If I am alive, why? Why? If there’s a God or whatever, something, somewhere, why have I been abandoned by everyone, and everything, I’ve ever known, I’ve ever loved? Stranded. What is the lesson? What is the point? God, give me a sign, or I have to give up. I can’t do this anymore. Please just let me die. Being alive hurts too much.” This instantly caught my attention if you keep her previous music in mind – TiKToK, Animals, We R Who We R, … This did not sound like the je-m’en-fou party popmusic we are used to of her at all. And then the song starts, and you are instantly brought back to everything that’s happened to her.
Yet, this isn’t a song blaming anyone – instead, it’s about forgiveness, about moving on, and after everything she has been through, that seems so surreal to me. She was abused in every way possible – yet there she is, hoping his “soul changes”, hoping he “finds his peace”. There is no hatred there. There is no grudge. She moved on, and left all the negativity behind. She has grown away from it. And this inherently is such an inspiring thought: if she can let go of being so cruelly abused for years, what the hell are we doing? Fighting over such insignificant things – keeping grudges, disliking each other just for the sake of it, fighting each other just because we are different.
Surely, if she can process the gruesome things that happened to her in such a positive way, there is hope for all of us? Surely, if she can hope for the person who harmed her so awfully and without any regrets whatsoever to find peace, we can let go of our grudges too? I know this post isn’t really like any of my others, but I felt like this had to be shared. Take the time to listen to the song, and take the time to think about it. Really think about it.
- L. Parole
* I don’t know if many of you are up-to-date on what’s been going on with Kesha, but let me summarize: she signed a contract with Dr. Luke at the age of 17, unaware that this gave him total control over her and her music, leaving her with zero creative freedom. This contract was followed by months of musical neglect by Dr. Luke, leaving Kesha all by herself in L.A. Eventually she started to make a name for herself, yet the negativity didn’t stop there – Dr. Luke started physically and emotionally abusing Kesha, making sure she felt utterly worthless and thus ensuring his total control over her.